Well over a decade ago, I began my journey into the life of kink.
I mean, I had read the Anne Rice Sleeping Beauty books. I had read some de Sade and other books available at the time that I could find in a library or big book store.
Yes, this was before Amazon and Kindle could fill us with millions of erotic tales.
I was heavy into the Goth scene and sported tons of leather, vinyl, black, lace, boots, corsets.
I had an inkling of what I was heading to, but was not sure where or how to go about my hidden little desires and fantasies.
Luckily, I had begun dating this guy (hubs) who had a perverted, twisty side too.
It was the earlier days of the emergence of the Neo-Burlesque scene.
I was fascinated, and years later, I would finally enter that stage and performed for quite a number of years. However, I digress.
I remember going with my partner and watching the gritty, punk, fetished out show.
We began seeing them regularly and began small conversations among the girls.
Lo and behold, one of the glorious amazon ladies was also...
I had never met such a person before. I was completely enthralled with all she told us.
My now hubs actually did a photo shoot with her for her website at the time.
She had a complete dungeon.
She had stockades, cock stocks, spanking horses, was deep into medical devices and needle play. I remember the first time I saw pictures of a penis that she had basically Jacob Laddered with needles.
Over a decade ago, I also had no idea about anal hooks, urethral dialators?!
Whips, chains, nipple clamps, cock cages, sensory deprivation suits....
The list went on and on!
I had never known a person could make a living providing these services.
I also adore that someone is so free, unhindered, and not hung up on trips of what anyone's sex life, fetishes or desires should be.
It made me want to open up more.
I thought about being a webcam girl. I wanted to make fetish clothing and accessories.
Personally, I'm not into handing out punishments, being the dominant, or the sado side of play, but I still am intrigued by those who do, and love to watch.
(And sometimes I do admit that I like to give spanks besides receive, lol)
She did demonstrations as fetish events, so I got to see her in action with rope bondage and paddlings.
I immediately wanted to up our game of bedroom recreation!
I mean I had read books for years, but had never witnessed so much or had first person knowledge as explanations. Hence, my own research began.
Perhaps this is why I like to use different bedroom scenarios from what is usually found in other erotica/BDSM books. I love the different, have a propensity for the twisted and depraved, and perhaps want to introduce more people to creative ways to spice up and explore their sex lives.
Real people do participate and live these lifestyles.
It's a shame that we are meant to feel ashamed about it or hide what we enjoy.
I followed her on the web for a while. She was in some fetish films too.
I recently did a search, and I see she is still around and offering her services and sessions, including tons of Sissy humiliation, spanking, pegging, and more.
And she still looks just as stunning as I remember her looking back then.
Maybe I'll throw her link in the Kinks & Links section. ;)